Day 27

Today was pretty crummy. My eating wasn't really bad, but work was really busy and frustrating. I'm so happy that it's over, and I pray that when I wake up in the morning everything will be much better. For lunch today I had my usual quesadilla, and two cups of edamame. For dinner I had a half chopped chicken Cobb salad, chicken tortilla soup, and an apple. After work I had a snack of Panera mac and cheese (small). I'm too tired to say much else. I kind of feel like crying, but maybe I'm just being crazy. Things aren't that bad, it's just been one of those days. Tomorrow will be better, I'm sure.

Day 26

Today for lunch I had a quesadilla (provolone, pepper jack, two slices of turkey, and tapatio). I also had two servings of Ben & Jerry's FroYo. On my break at work I had half a fuji apple roasted turkey salad, a cup broccoli cheddar soup with a baguette. After work I had a serving and a half of wheat thins, a wedge of chipotle and queso fresco cheese, and two slices of turkey.Work was kind of frustrating today, but hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Day 25

This morning I had to work from seven until four. I was completely exhausted because I didn't get off of work until late, and I couldn't fall asleep right away. I started getting cranky and angry at work. It was bad. Before I went to work I had a bowl of Sunbelt Bakery granola, with strawberries and skim milk. On my break at work I had a Mediterranean egg white sandwich on whole grain. After work I had a half chopped chicken Cobb, a cup of chicken tortilla, and half an apple (it wasn't a very good apple). I also had a serving of wheat thins with a wedge of tomato basil and mozzarella cheese. I took a quick nap, and then had to start getting ready because we (Heather, Kylla, and myself) went to see the Hunger Games! At first I wasn't sure if I should go or not because I was so tired, and not in the best mood, but I ended up liking it a lot. I had such a strong emotional connection to the books, and expected to be disappointed but I really felt that they did a good job of capturing its essence. I literally cried throughout the entire movie. After we got home from the movie I ate a serving of wheat thins and a wedge of chipotle and queso fresco cheese. Then I had a serving of Ben & Jerry's FroYo. I didn't eat any popcorn or drink any soda at the movies, which I am quite proud of. I had planned to go to the gym right after work today, but I was way too exhausted. I know that I need to find a way to fit in my workouts, hopefully my work schedule will be more consistent and that will help me get on a regular sleep and exercise schedule.

Day 24

This morning, for one reason or another I decided to weigh myself. I know that I need to work on avoiding the scale except for weigh in days, because it is going to drive me crazy, but I swear it just stares at me when I go into the bathroom and wants me to weigh myself! So I did. And I was very pleased with what I saw! Today I weighed in at 235 lbs! This puts me just a little ahead of my original goals schedule, and it means that I have lost  more than seven pounds! It was a great feeling to see that number, and feel strongly that I am forever kissing goodbye the terrible 240's. Today for lunch I had a quesadilla with a slice of provolone, a slice of pepper jack, two slices of turkey, and tapatio on a whole wheat tortilla. I also had steamed broccoli and carrots. A few hours later I had a salad with strawberries, gorgonzola, almonds, romaine, and raspberry walnut vinaigrette. For dinner at work I had a half thai chopped chicken salad, a cup of chicken tortilla soup, and an apple. We ended up being pretty bust at work, because there was a basketball game that we didn't know about. After I got off work I had two servings of wheat thins, a wedge of chipotle and queso fresco cheese, a wedge of tomato basil and mozzarella cheese, and a serving of Ben & Jerry's Raspberry Fudge Chunk Frozen Yogurt.

Day 23

Today I was off from work, and had planned to be very productive, but instead I did nothing. I was so tired and felt really lazy. For lunch I had an omelette with feta cheese, red and orange bell pepper, three egg whites, one slice of turkey, and salsa. As a snack I had a white cheddar cheese wedge with one serving of wheat thins. As another snack I had a parfait with plain fat free yogurt, granola, and strawberries. For dinner I had two servings of wheat thins, two slices of provolone, and three slice of turkey. I also had large serving of edamame. After dinner I had five pieces of sugar-free gum, and two little boxes of raisins. Even though I feel bad for having been lazy, I am proud that my food choices were pretty good.

Day 22

The first thing I did this morning was weigh myself. I lost .2 lbs. (I now weigh 238.2) since last week, which isn't great -or nearly as good as I had hoped for- but at least I didn't gain. I also took my measurements, and there was more of an improvement there. Last week my measurements were 16.5 inch arms, 51.5 inch hips, 43 inch bust, 36 inch waist, and 31.5 inch thighs. This week my arms are 16 inches, hips are 50 inches, bust is 42 inches, waist is the same, and thighs are 31 inches. I'm not too excited about my bust being smaller, because it was already small to begin with, but I'm hoping what I lost was only in "back fat" rather than breast size (har har). It was sort of disenchanting to see such a small difference in my weight change, but seeing the difference in my measurements helps me feel that I am still making progress. Again I'm hoping that this week I see more changes in my body, and hope that I can continue to grow stronger. On Sunday we are going bridesmaid dress shopping. Kylla told me that there is a dress at the shop my dress color and size, so I will get to try on the actual dress. I'm hoping that that size (16) actually fits me, considering that both she and Rachael had to go up a dress size when trying on dresses there. Either way, I'm sort of worried about buying this dress now for her wedding in November, considering that I am hoping to be around 40 pounds lighter at that time. I'm sure it will turn out fine, though.

On to today... For breakfast I had a cup of Honey Bunches of oats with 3/4 cup of skim milk and two strawberries. As a snack at work I had a ham and swiss souffle (13 PointsPlus! Not worth it now knowing that.) and a frozen chai (made with half and half, not so healthy). For lunch I had a half fuji apple chicken salad, a cup of chicken tortilla soup, and an apple. For dinner I had breakfast quesadilla, two slices of turkey, a slice of provolone, a slice of pepper jack, two eggs, and tapatio on a whole wheat tortilla. As dessert I had a cup of Sunbelt Bakery granola with 3/4 cup of skim milk. I had planned to go to the gym today, but I was so tired after work that I ended up staying home. I'm really regretting this looking at my points today, because I went over my daily allowance by 25. I'm realizing that I definitely need to track throughout the day so I keep that budget in mind constantly. I'm not working tomorrow, so hopefully I can be really productive. I'm planning on working out first thing, going grocery shopping, and cleaning. I don't feel great about the last few days, but today I did have someone mention that I looked thinner which was great. Hopefully I can stay strong and keep moving forward. I know that my God is with me always, that He loves and supports me in everything that I do, and that with Him anything is possible.

Day 21

Today was a pretty good one, although work was somewhat frustrating. For lunch I had a sandwich with provolone and chicken on asiago fococcia, two pickles slices, and half a grapefruit. This afternoon I went to the Colvin where I did 35 minutes on the treadmill (mostly fast paced walking, and a little bit of running), 100 reps on one hip abductor, 50 on the other, 100 reps on the vertical chest (that's the one whose name I never knew before!), 20 reps on the overhead press, 60 reps on the AbCoaster, and 50 sit ups. I had a quick sandwich before work with two slices of turkey, and provolone on asiago foccacia. For dinner I had another sandwich with provolone and chicken on asiago fococcia, two pickles slices, and half a grapefruit. I also had a salad with romaine, Gorgonzola, almonds, and raspberry walnut vinaigrette. Then I had 16 wheat thins (one serving), and a wedge of Weight Watchers white cheddar cheese. As a dessert of sorts I had a serving of honey bunches of oats with skim milk. I went over my daily allowance by one PointsPlus. I don't feel too badly about that because my workouts will account for that. Even so, I'm nervous about weighing myself tomorrow morning. I know that my eating this week has not been very good, but do feel confident about changes in my body. Hopefully this next week will be better than this one was.

Day 20

I had another bad day. I guess it wasn't as bad as yesterday, but still, it sickens me. I started off well (except for not waking up in the morning). For lunch I had a salad with chicken, almonds, Gorgonzola, romaine, and raspberry walnut vinaigrette. At work I had half a chopped chicken Cobb salad (sans egg as usual), a cup of chicken tortilla soup, and an apple. While I was closing I ate half of a chocolate chip cookie. After work I had a sandwich on asiago focaccia with chicken, and provolone, two pickle slices, Panera kettle chips, and a chocolate chip cookie. That one cookie? Eighteen PointsPlus. Yeah. I feel like such a fatty. The good news is that counting the points I've earned from working out I haven't gone over my allowed points for the week, but there isn't too much wiggle room. I'm going to try to get to the gym tomorrow before work, but I'm afraid it won't be enough. No matter what I'm sure that I won't be seeing the results that I was hoping to see after this week. I am going to try to reel myself in and not binge eat anymore. Indulgence is fine in moderation, I just have to keep moderation in mind. I know that waking up in the morning and eating breakfast is going to help get me back on track as well. Hopefully next week is a lot better than this one has been.

Day 19

Today was not the best. I ended up waking up at two o'clock in the afternoon, which is absolutely terrible not only because it's so late, but because it gave me less than an hour to get ready for work. I made myself a quesadilla with pepper jack, provolone, turkey, and tapatio on a whole wheat tortilla, and steamed veggies for lunch. At work I had a bowl of broccoli cheddar soup, half a chopped chicken cobb salad and a baguette. I figured I could afford a larger serving since I would probably be short on points considering my waking up late. This kind of thinking is what I'm finding to be my downfall. After I got home from work I made myself a bowl of dip (Velveeta, Hormel chili with beans, and jalapenos), and instead of having just a little bit with a few tortilla chips, I ate the entire bowl. Just thinking about it makes me sick. I disgust myself.

Day 18

I had today off from work, which was nice, because I stayed up very late on the phone last night. I know that I need to get myself on a decent sleep schedule soon, and I'm hoping that once Destinee and Emily come back from Spring Break I'll be able to do that since we'll be working out in the mornings again. For lunch today I had a salad with romaine, Gorgonzola, almonds, and light raspberry walnut vinaigrette. Around three I had about a cup of steamed mixed veggies, and a quesadilla with a slice of provolone, pepper jack, two slices of turkey, and tapatio, on a whole wheat tortilla. I went to the Colvin around six and rode the stationary bike on fat burn for 15 minutes. Afterwards I walked/ jogged on the treadmill for half an hours. After that I used the row machine for about ten minutes. I also used the hip abductor and the AbCoaster. I finished my workout by doing sit ups. On my way from the the gym I was starving and decided to splurge on Chipotle for dinner. I told myself that I didn't have to eat all of it, that it could be two or more meals. I bought a chicken burrito (black beans, brown rice, tomatillo salsa, sour cream, lettuce, and cheese), chips and guacamole. I ended up eating all of it. The chips alone were 15 PointsPlus and I ended up using 20 of my weekly extra points just from that one meal! It was really good, but it was definitely too much food. The next time I have Chipotle I plan to pre-portion my food to avoid overeating. I feel like I completely destroyed my good workout with that meal. At least I didn't eat terribly and not work out..

Day 17

Today I had planned to clean and work out. I ended up getting called in to work, and giving a ride to one of my coworkers, so my plans changed. For lunch I had the last of my baked penne, and some grapefruit. I also had two cookies. On my break at work I had a cup of broccoli cheddar soup, half a Thai chopped chicken salad, and an apple. While at work also had a chai tea latte that was a mess up. After work I had two more cookies. Even though my food choices weren't necessarily the healthiest I was right on track with daily amount of PointsPlus. In some ways I feel like I have such a long way to go still, and it's very daunting, but I just have to remember to take it one day at a time.

Day 16

This morning I did not want to wake up at all. I don't know how many times I hit the snooze button, but it was kind of ridiculous. I did get up while it was still morning though, which I guess is better than I have been in the past. I had planned to eat some sort of breakfast once I got up and eat again right before work, but I ended up going to lunch with Kylla, and shopping at Hobby Lobby again. We went to Louie's for lunch. I splurged on a club salad, and it was delicious. It had iceberg lettuce, spring mix, bacon, chicken, turkey, cheese, and tomatoes, with blue cheese dressing. I felt sort of silly spending so many points on a salad, but it was really good and really filling too. Once I got home I had a grapefruit as a snack, but had to start getting ready for work not long afterwards. During my break I had my usual chopped chicken Cobb salad, chicken tortilla soup, and an apple. I actually got a second break tonight since it was so slow. During that break I had a chai tea latte with skim milk. (Obviously) I didn't actually work out today, but again I did move around a lot at work. I'm definitely going to the gym tomorrow, though. I am trying to stay strong so that I can keep making progress. Not only do I feel stronger physically, but I feel like I have a lot more confidence in myself than usual. Hopefully I can use some of that new found confidence to make strides in other areas of my life...

Day 15

I woke up this morning (yay morning!) and the first thing that I did was weigh myself. I am very pleased to announce that since last Monday I have lost four pounds! I now weigh 238.4 lbs, which puts me (almost) on track with my original goals schedule. Hopefully by next week I will be ahead of schedule.

Anyways back to today, for breakfast this morning I had a jalapeno, mozzarella, and turkey omelette with a slice of whole grain bread. I ended up going shopping with Kylla for a few hours and didn't have lunch until late, but I had some leftover baked penne, and steamed edamame with sea salt. I went to the Colvin around six, and sadly it wasn't as empty as it was last time, but it was still nice not to have too many people around. While I was there I did 15 minutes of fat burn on the stationary bike, 15 minutes of cardio, and 5 minutes of cool down. Today's workout was pretty difficult for me to get through, probably because I am still sore from Saturday. After the bike I went on the StairMaster for ten minutes. Then I went downstairs and did 100 reps on one of the hip abductors, and 50 reps on the machine whose name I still don't know (the biceps/ triceps one). Next I used the AbCoaster, and finished by doing 40 sit ups on the upside down bench thing. For dinner I had taco salad with romaine, cilantro, jalapenos, salsa, ground turkey, black beans, tapatio, mozzarella, fat free sour cream, and two baked corn tortillas. For dessert I had the last serving of my Ben & Jerry's Greek FroYo.

This picture was taken on the tenth, just so that you have an idea of where I was starting from.

We were celebrating Heather's (pictured center) birthday if that helps to explain the silly string. Kylla is on the right.

Here I am today.
With my Kenzie on the couch behind me.

I'm not sure if it's really noticeable or not, but I definitely feel a difference in my body. I feel much stronger than I have before. I also feel like my arms and butt seem a little smaller. My work pants are a lot looser in the booty area too. I know this is just the beginning but I really so believe that this time I am going to make it!

Day 14

Today was not a day full of perfect meals, but I did come in below my PointsPlus target, which is good. Again I did not wake up in the morning. I really need to get a handle on my sleeping habits, because I know it's a factor in losing weight. For lunch I had my leftover chicken Pomodoro, and a roll. Then I had two servings of Ben & Jerry's Greek Frozen Yogurt. I also had half a grapefruit before heading to work. For dinner at work I had a half chopped chicken Cobb salad, and chicken tortilla soup, with an apple (my latest "usual"). Even though I didn't actually work out, I did lots of sweeping, mopping and vacuuming at work, so I was somewhat physically active. After work I had the other half of my grapefruit. Tomorrow I have to weigh myself and I am both nervous and excited to see the results of this past week.

Day 13

This morning I didn't wake up early enough to give me enough time to get ready properly, but I did manage to eat the last bowl of chicken noodle soup before I went to work. For lunch I had a cup of chicken tortilla soup, a half chopped chicken Cobb salad, and an apple. For my post work snack I had a cinnamon crunch bagel sans the cinnamon crunch (big mistake, even without the topping it was 10 PointsPlus!), and a serving of Wheat Thins with a wedge of Weight Watchers white cheddar. I was really tired after work, and all that I wanted to do was take a nap, but instead I got my butt off the couch and went to the Colvin. Since it's Spring break the gym was relatively empty, which was great! I started out on the stationary bike with 15 minutes of fat burn, 15 minutes of cardio, and a cool down of 5 minutes. Afterwards I moved to the StairMaster where I used the fat burn setting for 12 minutes. At this point I was practically drenched in sweat. After that I used both of the hip abductors with 100 reps each. Then I used the machine where you work your biceps and triceps, for 100 reps. Next I used the Ab Coaster, which was actually pretty fun. I have never used it before, so most of the time I was using I was pretty much just trying to figure out, haha. Finally I did 6 sets of 10 reps of sit ups on the upside down bench thing. I felt pretty accomplished after all of this. Then Kylla asked me if I wanted to have dinner with her, and we ended up going to DaVinci's. I had just one roll instead, of three or four, and ate only about half of my Chicken Pomodoro, which was very tomato-y, and probably one of the healthier choices on the menu. Afterwards, as a late night snack I had a serving of Ben & Jerry's new Greek Frozen Yogurt (Blueberry Vanilla Graham flavored). I feel like, overall, today was actually pretty good. I definitely did not eat perfectly, but I still feel proud of my progress. I have to remember that even though I still am eating some not-so-great-for-you things, it's a lot better to eat them in moderation and work out, than to scarf them down and not work out at all. I know that I will definitely have to keep working on eating better if I want to meet my goals, but I know that I can do it. During my work out I had to pray for strength, I know that He heard me, and I know that with Him anything is possible.

Day 12

Today was another difficult one for me. I don't think it was nearly as bad as yesterday, but again I didn't work out as I had planned. I woke up late again, which is awful because I am still working on re-setting my body clock. I have to work in the morning so hopefully that will help me to get back on track. For lunch I had a bowl of chicken noodle soup, a serving of Wheat Thins, and a wedge of Weight Watchers white cheddar cheese. As a snack I had a Twix ice cream bar. The good news is that that was the last one, so I won't have them around to tempt me anymore. At work I had a You Pick Two with a cup of our amazing chicken tortilla soup, and a half chopped chicken Cobb salad, with an apple on the side. After work I had another bowl of chicken noodle soup and a mixed berry smoothie. Then I had a serving of Wheat Thins with another wedge of the Weight Watchers white cheddar cheese. Even though I didn't work out today, and I didn't eat perfectly I stayed within my allotted amount of points. The past few days have been hard, I will admit that, but I still believe that I can do it. I know how strong I am, and I know that I am even stronger with God by my side as He always is. I am very much looking forward to meeting my first weight loss goal so that I can get that tattoo to remind always that I am His.

Day 11

Today was definitely a struggle for me. My morning workout was cancelled so I woke up late and that threw my entire day off. Since I woke up around 11:30 I didn't exactly have breakfast, but I did eat a bowl of leftover chicken noodle soup with toasted pepper jack cheese on whole grain bread. A couple of hours later I had some leftover baked penne and a grapefruit. After that I had another bowl of chicken noodle soup, sprinkled with red pepper flakes and tortilla chips. Kylla and Corey came over for dinner and I made tacos. I used yellow corn tortillas and baked them in the oven instead of frying them. As usual I used ground turkey, which I seasoned with McCormick taco seasoning. I had three tacos with lettuce, mozzarella, homemade salsa, and far free sour cream. I also drank some frozen margarita mix. After dinner I had a cookie.. Then I had a Twix bice cream bar. Then I had another. And then I had some wheat thins with weight watchers white cheddar cheese, which I now wish I had eaten two Twix bars and a cookie ago. So today was a rest day, I guess. I wish I could unearth some of those things, but I'm honestly proud that I didn't eat much worse and much because I was definitely having cravings. Anyways, I at least know that I am doing much better than I have been. Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully it will be a much healthier one. I'm planning on spending some extra time at the gym considering today's lack of vigilance. As hard as today was, I still believe that I can make it.

Day 10

This morning it was so hard to wake up! Honestly the only reason I got up was because Destinee was on her way over to do yoga. I was really hoping that she would cancel, but I was really glad afterwards that she didn't. Sadly, she's bailing on working out in the morning and then she is leaving for Spring Break, so I'm on my own for a whole week! Luckily Kylla said that she would go to the gym with me next week, which is exciting! Anyways back to today... Destinee and I were both completely burnt out so we just did the relaxing yoga workout. It was good to stretch everything though, since I was sore from yesterday. I also did a few triangle push-ups this afternoon (Ouch!). For breakfast I had turkey, mozzarella, and jalapeno scramble (with skim milk for "fluff"), and chai tea. For a mid morning snack I had cream of wheat with berries and almonds, and drank green tea. For lunch I had left over baked penne. As an afternoon snack I had a berry and green tea smoothie. For dinner I made chicken noodle soup! It had vegetables, whole grain shell pasta, baked chicken breast, chicken stock, and was seasoned with oregano, salt and lemon pepper spices. I topped mine with a bit of crushed tortilla strips and red pepper flakes. I have never made soup before, and even though it was pretty simple, it was really good! I had a grapefruit with my dinner. As dessert I had a cookie. I know that sounds like cheating but it fit into my points for weight watchers and I still had points left over. Around ten I had some sweet dreams tea with skim milk. I feel like I ate a ton today, but I also feel like it was mostly healthy food. I hope that joining weight watchers is a step in the right direction, and not a set back. Tomorrow I have to go to the gym all by myself, which I have never done. Here's hoping I can stay strong! Say a prayer for me if you have a moment, and let me know if you'd like me to say one to help you stay strong as well. Thank you for reading!

Day 9

This morning it was so hard to get out of bed, but I somehow managed to do it. I was really worried about being late, but as it turns out I had no reason to worry because Dest and Emily didn't leave until it was already 6:30. At the gym I did twenty minutes of fat burn, and ten of cardio on the stationary bike. Afterwards I did the stair stepper for two minutes. I know that sounds odd, but it was time to go, and I was exhausted. For breakfast I had an omelette with turkey, jalapeños, and mozzarella, with green tea to drink. For lunch I had pizza on whole grain bread, with leftover spaghetti sauce (ground turkey, not beef), and feta cheese. To drink I had English Breakfast tea. For snacks I had half a bag of sun chips, and a grapefruit. For dinner I had baked penne pasta, made with eggs, ground turkey, spaghetti sauce, and mozzarella cheese. After dinner I had a strawberry, peach, and green tea smoothie and a cookie. I know that probably sounds like a lot, it feels like a lot to me. I joined weight watchers this afternoon and discovered that I haven't been eating enough, hence the change increase in my diet. Even after all of that I still have about nine points left for today. I'm hoping that weight watchers helps me to stay on track for the next year.

Day 8

This morning I went to WalMart and bought myself a decent scale so that I could weigh myself at home. I'm happy with the scale that I bought, however I am not happy about the number on it this morning. I know that the numbers are going to be different because it's a different scale, I haven't eaten the best the last two days, and there are natural fluctuations in body weight, but I still expected to see a number in the 230s. Instead I weighed in at 242.4 lbs. I was really disappointed by this and immediately wanted to eat something terrible for me, which was not aided by the fact that I had been awake for a couple of hours and had yet to eat breakfast. Instead of having something bad, I ate a strawberry granola parfait, and drank green tea. Then I had a cookie (oops). For lunch I had a mozzarella and jalapeño omelette and half a single serve bag of sun chips. This afternoon I went to the Colvin with Destinee and Emily, and had a much needed work out. I'm very proud to say that I was called a beast whilst at the gym, even if it was just by Emily. We started on the stationary bikes, where I did ten minutes of fat burn, and fifteen minutes of cardio. Afterwards we headed downstairs, where I used the hip abductors, row machine, and one where you push your arms out (I can never remember its name, but it works the biceps, and triceps). Then we worked on abs. I did two sets of fifteen sit ups and one set of ten on that upside down bench thing. I also did three sets of fifteen tricep dips in between. All of this was followed by stretching, naturally. I felt pretty amazing after my workout, and a lot better about that number on the scale. I decided that the numbers aren't what's really important. Of course I want to see results, but I know that's going to take some time. The main thing is that I am making steps towards change, and feeling really good about them. For dinner I had a small portion of whole wheat linguine with tomato sauce and ground turkey, sprinkled with a little Parmesan. Then I had another cookie (oops again...) After dinner I made some hot chai tea with skim milk and Truvia. It was delicious. Now I'm looking forward to my early morning workout, and cleaning my bedroom tomorrow. Be sure to look for before and after pictures on my main blog at gorditaguerita.blogspot.com!

Day 7

Today had been completely exhausting! Between Heather's party last night, daylight savings time, and having to work at six thirty this morning, I got about three hours of sleep, but fortunately work was pretty decent. For breakfast I had a slice of leftover Hideaway pizza. During my break at work I had a frozen chai tea because my stomach was still cranky this morning. For lunch I had a chopped chicken Cobb salad with an asiago bagel. After that I decided to take a nap because I was totally wiped out. I have no idea how it is possible but waking up from my nap I felt even more tired than I had this morning! I really wanted just to keep sleeping but I had to get up so that I could get ready to go back to work for Bread Bash. I work at Panera Bread, by the way. During Bread Bash I had samples of our returning chicken tortilla soup, new Fuji turkey salad, new peach ginseng smoothie, our returning chocolate duet, focaccia bread, and our Cuban chicken panini. I also had some cheese and crackers, a lemon cupcake, and pop rocks! Okay, I know that sounds like a terrible amount of not so healthy food, but it wasn't a lot of each thing, and I didn't have any dinner besides that. Coupled with the fact that I didn't work out today it probably seems like I'm falling off of the wagon. I feel bad that I didn't work out today or yesterday, but I'm going to get a nice long work out tomorrow night, and I was on my feet all day both today and yesterday working. Tomorrow should be weigh in day, if I'm able to buy a decent scale from WalMart. Hopefully I see some results, but I'm trying to keep in mind my goals and not be disappointed if I don't see more than a pound lost. I have to keep in mind that what is important is making the changes necessary to live a healthy life, and feeling the confidence that these changes give me.

Day 6

Today was my first day off from exercising. My inner thighs were extremely sore from using the hip abductor yesterday. I had to work at eight this morning, so for breakfast I had a slice of cold hideaway pizza (with sun dried tomatoes, feta, chicken, and bacon) in the car on the way to work. On my break at work I ate a Greek salad, and a spinach and artichoke egg souffle. After work I ate a half sierra turkey sandwich which was left over from lunch. We celebrated Heather's birthday tonight and went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner where I had a chicken tender salad with mild wing sauce and bleu cheese dressing, and drank strawberry lemonade. Afterwards we came back to out apartment, and played "beer pong" (there was no beer involved). My friends got quite drunk and I played babysitter, as I have to work very early in the morning. I didn't much mind though, because I found it all quite entertaining. As a late night snack I had another slice of Hideaway pizza and a couple of pieces of cookie cake. Even though I don't think that the food I had today was too "bad", I do think I ate too much, especially considering that this last week I haven't been eating much. My stomach is not happy with me. On the upside, one of my friends (while inebriated mind you) mentioned that I looked like I had lost weight. Hopefully I can have more days like yesterday, and less like today.

Day 5

This morning I woke up before my alarm went off at 8:15! That probably doesn't seem like a big deal if you don't know me, but if you do you know that it really is. Anyways Destinee and I went to the Colvin at nine this morning and there was practically no one there. It was pretty fabulous I must say. We started on the stationary bikes for fifteen minutes and then headed downstairs to the machines. I worked my arms (I can't remember the names of the machines), then I used the hip abductors and worked my butt muscles. After that I used the row machine which seemed easy at the time but I can now feel its effects. Finally I did 20 crunches on the hanging bench thing. For some reason this seemed even harder than on Monday, and my feet kept slipping. We were at the gym for just under an hour, but I feel like I was very productive in that time. For brunch I had a slice of whole grain toast with crunchy peanut butter and a bag of Panera kettle chips. At work I had a sample of our frozen carmel, and once I got home I had a roasted turkey salad with tomatoes, and a blue cheese vinaigrette. I had a really great day and I attribute a lot of that to working out. Again, I know I have a long way to go, but I have never felt this positive about losing weight before and I am excited to see what the future holds!

Day 4

This morning I missed my workout because I was at my parent's house out of town. I guess you could say it was sort of a cheat day, but I did do relaxing yoga for about twenty minutes this evening, so it wasn't a total loss. For breakfast I had four leftover nachos with salsa, lettuce, and sour cream. For lunch I had a slice of Sam's Club pepperoni pizza with red pepper flakes and Parmesan cheese. I drank a combination of lemonade, green tea, coke, and sprite with my lunch. For dinner I had a chopped chicken Cobb salad and a parfait. I felt a lot less sore today, although I'm welcoming that feeling again soon. I weighed myself on my mom's scale (which is a fancy one) and I came in at 238.4 lbs. I know that I should weigh myself once a week on the same scale for more accurate readings, but it was really nice to see a number in the 230s, because it has been way too long since I have seen one.

I also wanted to mention that I have decided to adjust my weight loss goals. My first big goal is to be at 220 pounds by June 4th. (That's 21 lbs. lost). If I meet my goal by that deadline I will reward myself with my first tattoo, "Soy Tuyo" on the back of m neck. My next goal is to weigh 199 pounds by my 21st birthday (42 lbs. lost). If I meet this goal I plan to get a tattoo of a key on my right foot. Goal number three is to weigh 181 pounds by December 10, a weight loss of 60 lbs. If I meet this goal I plan to buy every season of How I Met Your Mother on DVD. My final goal is to be 160 lbs. by March 18, 2013, with a total weight loss of 81 lbs! If I meet this goal I plan to go on a mini shopping spree and buy an entire new wardrobe. If I don't meet a goal, I don't get the reward, but if I meet a goal weight early, I plan to reward myself early as well. This a big challenge to take on, and its going to take a year to accomplish, but I believe in myself, and I know that I can do this!

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Day 3

This morning I woke more sore than I think I have ever been in my life. At eight I did yoga for about 40 minutes with Destinee. I had a turkey sandwich with caesar dressing on wheat bread. I didn't have lunch but I ate a blueberry nutrigrain bar as a snack. For dinner I had a salad with almonds, field greens, chicken and maple vinaigrette. I also had strawberry lemonade and three or four chicken, cheese, and bean nachos.

Day 2

This morning I woke up at six in the morning, which, if you know me at all you know, is a great feat in and of itself. Then I met Destinee at the Colvin. I worked out on the elliptical at level 10 for fifteen minutes. Afterwards I rode the stationary bike for twenty minutes with the fat burn setting. When I got home I had a small portion of leftover fettuccine and chicken Alfredo and a roll. I ate the rest of my leftovers for lunch and a Twix ice cream bar as a snack. For dinner I had a chopped chicken cobb salad with kettle chips. After work I had another Twix ice cream bar (Oops.)

My goal weight is 165 lbs (meaning I have to lose 76 lbs.) I know that that is a lot of weight it is going to take time to get there healthily. I don't mean for this to be just another diet. I want to change my entire life. Thinking realistically I can lose about 1.5 lbs. a week. So my first goal is to lose 6 lbs. by April 3. If I make this goal on time I am going to reward myself by getting my first tattoo! Ideally I would like to be under 200 lbs. by September 17 (my 21st birthday!) and using this first goal as a stepping stone I should be able to meet that goal. I feel really confident right now and I am looking forward to having a set schedule to workout.

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Day 1

We make plans and God laughs. I didn't mean for it to be, but today was the beginning of my new life.

Today I ate leftover tortellini alla panna and two rolls for lunch, there was no breakfast to speak of. At the Colvin I worked my arms and shoulders on a machine whose name I do not know. I also worked on a crunch machine for about ten minutes. Afterwards I did 55 crazy sit ups on this upside down bench thing. To finish off my workout I rode the stationary bike for 25 minutes with a 5 minute cool down on fat burn mode. I was so sweaty and so ridiculously sore. Then Destinee, Emily, and I ate three cheese rice-a-roni with chicken and wheat thins. Overall not the healthiest food wise, but my portions were fairly small and I got an amazing workout. I feel great about day one!